Tuesday, February 28, 2006

For want of...

Its been some days since I blogged. Not that I've to meet a deadline or keep a word, yet when I'm at a loss for words - I miss being able to blog-
and as I was blog hopping- I landed into Aruna's lair - and there I found fodder for my blog! I promptly jumped over to find what kind of a personality I was thru the shortest online test and here's what I found out- and whether its true or not- ahhh- who knows- its fun tho- doing these random tests- curiosity factor is optimum- and atleast I can post it!
Your Personality Profile
You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth.While you may not be a total hippie...You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around.
You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure.However, you do put some thought behind all your actions.Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!
The World's Shortest Personality Test
and another thing, whenever I post a new blog the page gets realigned such that one has to scroll all the way down to be able to read them. Sometimes it gets aligned at the top by itself, sometimes, if I republish it over and over again it works and at other times the posts remain stubbornly way down...anybody have any idea how to deal with it- I shall be grateful...

Monday, February 20, 2006

*Tingling with Mortification...

I’m very reluctant to take up the initiative in activities especially in groups. I prefer to linger unobtrusively in the background, the main reason being I’m petrified of committing a blunder and ending up being the cynosure of all disapproving eyes! I get very embarrassed by the ensuing comments- well meaning or otherwise. I tend to feel mortified that I shy away from such occasions that might require my active participation in any way. This hesitation has often been misinterpreted as a non cooperative stance or attributed to sheer laziness.

There have been a few occasions when I’ve summoned the courage to try to do something pro actively either out of compulsion or as a bravado on my part. Mostly, I start off fairly well, but at some point I end up committing some kind of silly mistake. I become painfully conscious of eyes around me- and feel like sinking to the nether world a la- Sita maiyya.

A couple of weeks ago yet again I ventured to help out in a group activity in our colony timidly yet enthusiastically. I seemed to be doing quite ok, and my confidence was slowly building up….alas, some more moments- and there I had done it again! Though everybody was very kind and considerate about my blunder, as usual , I myself was my most unmerciful critic. Hot, embarrassed tears stung my eyes, and I was overwhelmed by the same hopeless sensation in my being. Somehow , I kept mumbling apologies incoherently and made a get away at the next possible moment.

I’m sorely tempted to keep away from such situations again in the future, but like my husband says, I don’t think I should keep running away. I’m no longer a kid who can escape responsibilities ,and at my age , I’m required to do my bit in society and cannot simply shrug off my responsibility… I also realize that this sense of mortification is only within my own mind and the people around me usually do not give it so much of importance. Yeah true, they do have a good, healthy laughter over me but its never in malice. All I need to do is join them in the laughter and keep moving…I’ll get there some day soon-
*p.s: and the title of this blog has been lifted from a sentence in a story "Face on the wall" by E.V.Lucas- was very impressed with the expression and love to use it whenever the oppurtunity presents...and btw, its an engrossing story...

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Tagged yet again!

And this time, by Bharath aka bleu…

7 things I wish to do before I die:

1. Read many more books
2. write a few books ( hahaha- whats wrong in dreaming),
3. learn dancing once again,
4. Do my M.A in English Literature, then M.phil, then thesis…(there's no end to dreams)
5. Meet Amitabh Bachchan ( not on KBC)
6. Set up a library- with a humongous collection of books
7. Visit a few places

7 things I do not enjoy doing:

1. Hard work of any kind
2. Attending functions, social do’s
3. Travelling
4. Doing something simply because I’m expected to or supposed to
5. Arguing
6. shopping
7. being in a crowd

7 things that Attracted Me to Blogging:

1. brings me Relief of Expression
2. enjoy Toying with words to bring out my thoughts effectively.
3. Gives me clarity of thought
4. helps me sort things out within myself
5. Seeing my thoughts crystallized into words on the monitor gives me a highenjoy
6. enjoy reading other’s thoughts and expressions.
7. Enjoy interacting with the virtual community

7 things I say most often:

1. “Hayyada"
2. “PPP” – "Palliyil poyi Paranjaal mathi" meaning : go and tell this elsewhere, not to me :-)
3. "Please" “sorry”
4. ‘vere paniyilla’- roughly translated as :“as if I’ve no other work”,this however is used in jest.
5. calling out the names of my DH, sons.
6. I also have a habit of uttering the name of my “ishta deivam”(favourite deity) now and then
7. OK- to indicate I’m listening.

7 Books I like:

1. Roots
Alex Haley
2. Zorba the GreekNikos Kazantsakis
3. Parallel JourneysAnu Majumdar– story of a young Indian dancer and a French architect, whose lives are infiltrated by the journey Maitreyi and Yajnavalkya had undertaken eons ago…
4. Randam OOzham- The second turn -The incidents of the Mahabaharatha from the POV of Bheema- by
M.T.Vasudevan Nair
5. Ini njaan Urangatte - (Now, let me sleep!), P. K. Balakrishnan's retrospective account of the Mahabharata from Draupadi's perspective
6. Ente Karnan – Karna’s story by V.T.Nandakumar

7. Bharatha Paryatanam- Voyage thru the Mahabharatha- Kuttikrishna Maraar- critical exposition of the main events in the epic Mahaabhaarata. Maraar questions the subjectivity of Dharma and Adharma, the definition of rights and wrongs

7 Movies I want to watch again (and again and again - more than 7please)

Vijeta ( old-Shashi Kapoor, Rekha, Kunal Kapoor, Supriya Pathak)
Kalyug (old- Shashi Kapoor, Rekha, Raj Babbar, Khulbhushan Kharbhanda, /Anant Nag)
Kaagaz ke phool
Jaane bhi do yaaron
Chashme Baddoor
Saahib Biwi aur Ghulam
Jhanak jhanak paayal baaje
Paayal ki jhankaar
Silangai oli
Sound of Music
That touch of Mink
I’ll stop here, b4 I remember any more

7 pieces of Music I enjoy

1. Bombay Jayasree’s albums
2. Aruna Sairam
3. Uthukkadu krithis
4. M.S’s ‘Jagatho udhaarana’, Maithrim bhajatha…
5. Lata’s hits
6. Asha’s hits
7. Kishore Kumar, Rafi, Mukesh hits

and yet again, I leave the tag open- anyone wishing to do so – pls do, only pls leave a comment, so that I can go check it out- always interesting to gain trivia abt other bloggers…

Monday, February 06, 2006

Shabd- the Movie

This can’t be called a review – its just my response to the film as I watched it- my way of perceiving it…

Friday, February 03, 2006

My Life path number!

Your Life Path Number is 6

Your purpose in life is to help others
You are very compassionate, and you offer comfort to those around you.It pains you to see other people hurting, and you do all in your power to help them.You take on responsibility, and don't mind personal sacrifice. You are the ultimate giver.
In love, you offer warmth and protection to your partner.
You often give too much of yourself, and you rarely put your own needs first.Emotions tend to rule your decisions too much, especially when it comes to love.And while taking care of people is great, make sure to give them room to grow on their own.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Thursday, February 02, 2006

The Eternal Wait

The sound of the approaching train barged into her senses and she was startled out of her stupor. Subconsciously she moved into the “waiting” mode.When she heard the sound of the approaching train, her senses perked up in reflex- she could not unlearn it....read more